busy bee

so it's been busy busy for me since valentine's day.
busy visiting friends, working, drinking vodka, and having horrid migrainey flu.
i cannot wait to havce a nice steam tomoro at the gym!

and this is a little something that i made while home on the sofa sick sick sick:
she is a dead mommy bee...based on the pattern by ana, but enhanced alot - to the point i wonder when it becomes an homage, as i changed the antenna, the face, body, and wings...so basically tweaked it all, and love the way it turned out.

i'm finding that i'm really tweaking her patterns alot lately (again) i love ana's amigurumis and find they are such an inspiration...big props to her!!!

manic

well fucking hell...things have got busy busy busy around here.
luckily the manic weird emotional shit has kinda subsided - things are still down but we are all getting through it...i think.

got back from raqs britannia totally broked, had a day off then went straight to the gym, a couple more belly dancing classes and back to the gym - then it was london gay pride, so by the time sunday rolled around my thighs weren't lookin' too bad! not lot of crochet got done...some more motifs for my freeform - and starting some fringey tassels but otherwise it's not been that productive.

o and work has been busy busy busy too.

altho i did score some lovely conch shells and beads to add to my work!

this weekend is going to be all about hanging out with my cousin who is here visiting from utah, and watching belly dancing and world cup extravaganzas rolled into one...of course i'll take my crochet along, but not sure how much i'll get done.

ooo...daddy!

happy father's day out there to all the daddies!
it's been a strange weekend around here as my mister has been away working...
so i've had alot of time for training and practising - hard gym session yesterday then yoga yoga yoga today - now i've started tribal, i need as much yoga in my life as possible...the rest of the time i've spend working on a lovely crocheted hip scarf out fo the gedifra amara shiny shiny chocolate yarn. i love this yarn - it is totally my favourite, but i really really wish that i'd bought beads with much bigger holes...reckon i'm giving up on these and will just get on with hand fringing.

which is not any easier as i'm healing my new crochet tattoo!!!!
damien voodoo did such an awesome job, it is definitely the best illustration of a crochet hook i have ever seen - i'm so happy that held out and had him do it for me. i'm back to see him in a couple weeks to start planning the rest of the tattoo - based on the crocheted yarn bombing flowers that i make and leave everywhere...like a yarny gretel, lol!

yarn.

well i finally did it.

i made it to cafe stitch at the wellcome institute today!
and i loved loved loved it.

there was a really nice group of women there and lovely apricot crumble and gree tea.
yum.

i dint take much yarn with me as i knew i was going to have to run off to the gym, but am thinking of moving my usual saturday training sessions to either earlier or later so i have lots of time to hang out as no one seems to show up til around noon. not that it matters, it's the type of place i might even go sit alone and have cake - and we all know how much i HATE to do anything alone.

in fact, this weekend has really been my first solo weekend in london for a long long long time.
i did get a bootie call around midnight - but i declined so its now tea at claridges with a lovely rockabilly man...think this one will just be a friend though as i'm still not sure what to do with the scandotoy and am still currently really hating my ex assface fiance....

and its 3:36 in the morning and i'm wide awake!

sunday funday.

well, bake camp was fun...to a point.
great baking - lots of lovely champagne - and lovely friends.
but all these friends are settled down, living with their partners, and have numerous degrees each - and are younger. i'm sitting here with no qualifications to speak of, with a relationship that is so far from living together that i'm still thinking i'll need a flatmate soon to help with the bills - and the loneliness...i really wished that i'd fitted in more.

so am looking at birkbeck to maybe study something like this economics course as it inter disciplinary so 'd probably find it quite interesting. but the relationship thing i really can't push anymore - as much as i want to...

and one good thing that came out of bake camp - i think i'll add it to my weekly rituals!
so now i'm this:
monday gym
tuesday hoxton
wednesday iknit or gym
thursday iknit or gym
friday relationship therapy
saturday gym
sunday pub!

altho before gym tomoro i want to buy some new 2ply yarn to make myself a nice patchwork stole of the arcade diamond medallions/granny squares. really need something for summer!

sunday nutroast day?

i really really really don't know what to do and whatever i do is wrong. he's my best friend and my life and i feel horrid and useless, so bad that even the vicodin isn't helping anymore. i'm trying so hard just to get on with things and keep myself busy with gym and crafty bits and have even started accepting dreadlock hair appointments again (ssshhh!) but still the tears are starting to slip out, thank little baby jesus for lancome waterproof blue mascara.

o and nothing went to plan yesterday!
my daughter and i both had womanly monthly pains so she put off moving into her new studio flat. john bloody lewis refused to deliver my new mirrored bedroom furniture up to the 4th floor.
no one in the mood to go to trader vic's for mai tais so we ended up at strada with their lovely fizzy pink...BRUT DI PINOT NERO ROSÉ, Ruggeri Veneto, yum!

so not a total loss. just wish i was meeting my lovely fiance today for sunday lunch.

need nutroast. maybe that would make things all better?
not that i have an appetite. stress diet means i'm back wearing my jeans with ease.